'Shh, I know...it's only in my head'

""Charlie is awful. She just talks shit all night long...""

October 19, 2002 : 11:01 pm
Now Playing: counting crows - 'rain king'
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Sometimes i can feel myself turning into my mother. it's a slow but steady process. Lately it seems like all i do is talk on and on about nothing. I always wanted to be the person who who had all these brave, brilliant, interesting things to say...but now, no one even bothers listening to me anymore.

Does anyone feel like I have something to offer them, besides being some sort of backup...? "If I call, she will come." Did you know I cannot spend an evening alone, doing nothing? I am INCAPABLE of doing so. That spells out something wrong with me, but I haven't figured out quite what that is yet. Alone equals abandoned for me. It's not true; I know it's not true...but it hurts just the same.

I give up. You win.

I'm sorry.

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